Today I am okay.

I have finally reached that point where I don't invest my hopes into job interviews.  I go because I am required to for collecting unemployment.  Now I don't have those ups and downs with hoping for a job after the interview only to be rejected.  I really do just want to stay at home and take care of things.  Believe me, I am busy enough that way.  Money and health insurance would be great, but we are okay for now.
My husband resolved his issues with his business partner and work is picking up, so that's good.
My focus has been working toward understanding and trying healthy eating.  I'm still working on my stack of library books, but I feel like its going well.  Learning all of this stuff makes me mad at my weight loss dr.  I understand her need to make things simple to get people started in the right path, but what about after that?  Why has she not talked about organic eating, calories not being equal, superfoods, additional necessary supplements, etc?  I plan to ask her at the next appt.  I'm sure she'll have some generic response.  Who knows?
So in my discovery towards healthy living, I am trying organic options as I can.  Not sure if I see a difference, but maybe that's the hidden truth of it.  Yeah eventually you feel better, but generally it is knowing that you are not adding toxins to your body and you are nourishing it to the best of your ability.  Healthiness is the long term goal.  What I can gather so far is to eat high protein, high fiber and high superfoods along with supplements for good health.  Now I have to consolidate that info, assimilate that into reality and foods my family and I will actually eat and figure out the whole calorie/sugar count to go along with it.  I have a book on order at the library that I am eager to read.  It is called "Deceptively Delicious".  I guess its supposed to be about how to cook vegetables into everyday items, thereby disguising them so you can eat them.  That is good news for me because I HATE vegetables.  I try, but they make me gag. 
Lately the only thing not so good is my energy level.  If I don't have a focus for the day, I want to sleep it away.  Then, of course, go to bed at night too.  I've been focused on working out, but now with shin splints I am on mandatory rest.  There goes most of what I do to workout!  I can still focus on yoga and ab work, but I haven't been to the gym since friday and I am so bummed.  Even if my focus of the day isn't working out, unless I have to go somewhere, I have no motivation or energy.  I am hoping it is just pms.  I am a week away and although I don't have many pms symptoms, eating more and sleeping more seem to be my issue.  Maybe I need to take my vitamins more regularly.  When I did that, I noticed hardly any pms symptoms. 
Right now I am finishing lunch and should work on cleaning my bedroom and doing laundry, but I just want to close my eyes.  I have no kids, no husband at home, great opportunity.  Or I should do some yoga and ab work....  maybe later.
One last good note.  It is the day after halloween, we have a huge bowl of candy and I haven't touched it, nor do I care to.  Hooray me!

Thanks for listening.